Talk to me 💔 added more

The playlist aren’t gone just private. I feel emotionally committed to you and therefore physically that’s why it’s so painful not to know what I am for you. My head hurts I ran out of tears see you at work goodnight I wish I could hold you. And no, Shayna, I won’t fuck someone else. I have boundaries with people. Please try, please have boundaries. I spent the night crying because it hurts, and I just don’t know what else to do. I don’t want to do anything with anyone else. I fucking want you. He knows I called him crying when he got out of work. You think he spies to cause issues? No, it’s because I feel insecure in this situation. It’s because I’m desperate for something to hold onto. I try not to burden you with my needs. I really do. If I’m supposed to trust your friendship, then please have boundaries. Please don’t weaponize it. I am sorry if I’ve hurt you. I don’t mean to. I am just trying not to look stupid for loving you so much while receiving so little clarity. Some people think I’m stupid, and you know what I did? I cut them out because I don’t care about what they think. I care about you. Ive done everything short of beg you to talk to me. Shayna I tell you I love you. I tell you I hurt. I tell you I’m here for you. When I hurt and need something from you you punish me. Why why can’t you tell me anything why can’t you help me feel secure. Why do I have to feel alone in this situation. I removed the playlist not to delete you to hope for something real in person. And now you intentionally withdraw boundaries to show the difference for what. So I can hurt more so I can beg you because I haven’t been the only one being vulnerable this entire time. Shayna it’s unfair I don’t have anyone around me at work like that. I’m trying to get something from you anything. Fuck Shayna I’m just tired of hurting because I’m the only one here.